I have been waiting 3 years to write this blog post, this picture was taken 3 years ago, in which I proclaimed that I was moving to LA. Yep 3 years is a long time to wait to write a post I can tell you that! There were moments in my life where I never thought it would happen, where I was curled up in a ball, depressed and discouraged, almost believing that my dreams were not going to come true.
I couldn’t let those moments last, I allowed myself to ride them out as needed, and then pull myself off my whiny ass and get back on the bandwagon of faith and certainty. It’s hard to believe in yourself, when there are so many obstacles and challenges that beat you down, constantly tricking you into believing that you are not who you think you are.
And all along the way I said “Fuck ‘em” yes I will use the F-Bomb because it is well deserved when I’m talking about my fears and doubts. So here I am folks, ready and willing to pack my bags and take the biggest leap of my life! I’m moving to Los Angeles, I’m leaving Toronto, something I’ve wanted to do since I was 16 years old.
So why LA? And why do I want to move? Well, I need to be by the ocean and I feel that my soul is more in tune with the West Coast mentality and personality. I’ve never been happy in the cold winter and I just couldn’t live my life where only 6 months out of every year I would enjoy it. California is a little piece of paradise, and it’s now mine for the taking!
Yesterday I said to my husband, “You realize that we finally manifested this! That we are actually living out our dream!” It’s hard to believe; yet it all makes so much sense. In hindsight I know now why it took as long as it did, I had to meet the right people to help me on this journey. I had to stay here to spend the last few years with my beloved Zaidy, and I had to grow as a person and a company so that I could transition at the perfect time.
It’s really hard to see the foresight when you feel stuck, not knowing if what you want more than anything in the world is going to happen. Which is why I held on to faith, and I had to let go, knowing that the universe never disappoints if I stay firm in my desires and remain happy no matter where I am in life.
And now, as time ticks I realize how grateful I am to Toronto for giving me the opportunity to get to where I am today and to grow into the person I have become. I have found new love for my city and I will always feel at home here. It’s hard to be in the moments where you feel like nothing is happening, but something is always happening, something cosmic and wonderful, even if you can’t see it, the key is to believe it exists.
The biggest lesson I learned is that the only thing I know to exist is the moment I’m living in right now. In hindsight I would have probably handled certain fears much differently, and now with new-found foresight I can embrace that everything I need, I already have.
So long cold winter days freezing my ass off!
Good-bye to bone chilling winds and dark grey skies!
Farewell to hibernation 6 months of the year!
Hello Sunny California!! – Go make your dreams come true, I’m just a regular gal trying to make every moment count.
With love and prosperity,